My instincts have been so accurate lately that they make me shudder in fear sometimes.

But really, I am left wondering often, was whatever I "saw" a gut instinct or a visualisation?

I don't know.

But guess what. When I attended Jy's wedding last Saturday and I saw him as my groom (that sounded so weird, but yes, that is it), I was shocked.

Shocked because I think he would be the last person on Earth I would want to marry.

And I don't even think I like him. Not even a tiny winy bit.

All right. I have to confess. I find him cute. Yes, he is charming.

And yes, he has got the boyish looks and is the kind of guy I would be physically attracted to.

But physical attraction and marriage are tons apart.

You can be physically attracted to many people, but you can't marry all of them, can you?

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The kind of guy I am looking for must 1) not be too good-looking; 2) dote on me ; 3) share a similar mindset/values.

I am not sure, and in fact these days, I am more certain that I can't than I am unsure, if I can find him.

There seems to be a potential, though.

But I wonder,

if I feel that he is a potential, why didn't I imagine him as my groom? Why had I imagined someone else, someone I consciously know I won't marry?

...

Maybe this just goes to show I haven't yet got the mindset to settle down.

Maybe when I meet that one guy destined for me, I will know that feeling.

I hope I will know.