They always say resolutions work better when you write it down.

Apparently, it is because by writing down, you are making a conscious intention to remember it.

Oh well. I am not sure if I subscribe entirely to that saying, but I figured I could just try it anyway.

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I am taking up for the Pole Dance and Exotic Dance classes.

Are you surprised? Are you asking 'Why'?

I am surprised too, to be honest.

As to 'why', I guess it is because I feel that I can finally try to do it.

Previously, I was very shy of myself. I was very unsure of myself, my body, my capabilities.

But even so, I had always thought pole dancing was cool. And I mean cool in bold letters.

I just didn't dared to take it up because I felt it was too 'unlike' me.

The "I" I have always known is a decent and proper girl. She is crazy and laughs hysterically. She is anything you can call except a lady.

And so, how would this image coincide with a sensuous lady?

Well, I don't think it did. In fact, I think they are kind of incongruent.

But the truth is, I am still unsure of myself. I am still doubtful of myself.

However, I still want to give it a shot.

Who am "I"? I don't know.

I mean, yes, I am a decent and proper girl. And I can be crazy and laugh hysterically.

But I can also be sensually appealing, I think.

Or perhaps I should say, I want to give myself a chance to look like that.

I mean, if I don't give myself a chance, I would never know if I could be like that, right?

We all need to transform ourselves at one time or another.

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I guess at the end of the day, I finally decide to take up the two classes largely because Alex DeSilva once said this in "So you think you can dance"

It is easy to teach a dancer to count. It is not easy to teach a dancer to be sexy.

And I might as well start learning to do that, right.