Tuesday, March 27, 2007

I know by thinking like this, I am doomed for failure.

The universe doesn't work like this. I know it doesn't.

But then again, I can't control the very fact that I have this thought. I feel like I am sinning when I have this thought and time and again, I try my best to suppress it but it just comes back to haunt me again and again.

How do I silence this voice?

...

Never mind if I set myself up for failure by thinking like this.

Never mind if the universe is out to prove me wrong for the very fact that I think like this.

Never mind everything!

And so I tell you and myself,

my most inner self, that,

One day...I shall be better than all of you.

*pointing to each one of you who has so failingly been supportive which comes across as mere mockery*

Wait, maybe I am just jealous.

*shrugs my shoulders*

You, you, you and you.

One day in the near future, I shall become a much better dancer than all of you.

One day, I shall be able to achieve more things you ever imagined I could ever do.

Just you watch and see.

Just you wait.